Will I ever?

Since the day you left I have been trying to assess myself,
will I ever be the same when you are gone?
will I ever smile alone in the midst of loneliness?
will I ever feel the happiness each time our gazes met?

I am trying to convince myself that
This feeling will vanish in just a span of time…
Been hurt before and it took time for me to move on
If I go through it once more
I’ll better spend my lifetime alone.

I don’t know what to think just for today
A slap on my face…
I couldn’t bear the pain
Of losing you
It was my fault I know I have thrown you away…
Now I know this is again the battle that I should win.
The time has come…I think this is enough…
I will move on with my life and feigned that I never felt pain…

Time passes by without you,
I don’t know will I ever survive these coming days
God I don’t know what to do…
The life I imagine without you…