I was surprised when one of my friends told me
That I am very choosy and having the highest standards of all standards
I was really sadden by what he said because he didn’t know me at all,
For all I Know I am not like that…

So hear me out when I speak what is on my mind,
You may sometimes misinterpret me as Miss High and Mighty,
Unreachable, career-driven, intelligent and passive…
In a way you may see me as someone like that because I am silent and
I never talk to contest…
I dare not to speak because I for one know myself better than anybody else in this world
Deep inside me there lies simplicity
These are comments that I likely received because of my character
I was branded as the ‘silent girl’ who rarely talks
I never explained my side because I don’t care
But I’m telling you I am not like that
If you will approach me and try to engage me in a conversation
I will not ignore you unless you are with an incorrigible manner.

Yes, I know there are people who approach me
And I never know their true intentions for the reason that
The battle has not yet started but they quit…
They never dare to tell me
I am not adept in those read between the lines scheme…
Tell it to me upfront, it is more appreciated
I will be honest there are times that I am in a brink of falling
And I was holding on because I am afraid of failing…
I needed security and assurance
To let me feel how much I am valued as a person…
Life is a long journey, let us see who will be walking with me until the end of story…
For the record, who wants to be hurt once more?
Who wants to recapture the piece that was broken?
Yes, I am looking for someone’s quality
Fidelity, commitment, consistency of communication and responsibility…
I demanded those traits because I know when I loved
He will have my unwavering loyalty and commitment…

I never require someone to be perfect because I am not perfect
Fidelity is such a lonely word as the song goes
In life we sometimes need to be trustworthy
Even if you two are in million miles away…
Commitment is not an obligation but a matter of dedication…
I never demanded that I will be his world
I just need some of his time to let me know I am loved
Regularity of communication I guess is the right definition…
I know responsibility comes with maturity
Be mature enough for your action and be responsible for your life
If you can not take care of your own life, would you be able to care someone else’s life?

I believed we are beautifully created by God
And in God’s perfect time He will reveal what is in store for us
He is molding us into a wonderful creature
So that when the perfect time comes
We will have the most beautiful love story…

Will the rain ever stop?

The rain is pouring torentiously

Beating hard on my battered body

Hiding the storm in my eyes

Obscuring my painEach drop blasted on the soil

Damping and soothing its thirst

But, to me each droplet

Contributed to the puddle of mudLike the disarray

I feel insideI look up to the skyAnd see only endless smog

The hue of the sun smeared in gray

My dreams lost in pitchblack

Like the weeds drowning in the deep puddle

How long can I survive?

Frustration tugging relentlessly at my arms

Drowning in ill-fate

Will the rain in my life ever stop?

MERCY HAS DAWNED ON MY ONCE SELFISH SOUL,
FOR A BEDIMPLED WHO SNATCHED AWAY MY JOY.
I THOUGHT I WAS DEPRIVED, BUT, LOOK AT HER WHOSE BLISS WAS NEVER HERS,
SCANT OF THE SOLACE HER OWN BLOOD COULD GIVE.
I BASKED IN HE WARMTH WHILE SHE BEGGED FOR HER SHARE.
THEN, SHE STUMBLED UPON YOU, AND, FOUND HER STRENGTH
AGAIN, STARTED FEELING WHAT JOY WAS LIKE.
YOU CLOSED MY DOOR AND, RUSHED BACK TO HER, SENDING ME STRAIGHT TO MY GRAVE.
WHAT YOU HAVE DONE, I NOW UNDERSTAND.
MY BURDENS ARE, BUT, A SOFT TOUCH OF THE CURSE IN HER LIFE.
LIGHT HAS BESET MY HEART - SHE NEEDS YOU, WORSE THAN I
COULD POSSIBLY DO.

When the rest of the world is sleeping, I’m in the middle of sanctuary…
A dust clouded my eyes, blurring my vision…
I tread a pathway bending in both ends,
Uncertainty crippled me, unable me to maneuver,
I screamed for the sight that I behold…
Darkness engulfs me in the wilderness…
Tears roll down on my cheeks, I bathe with my own blood running…
I have recover my strength… recapture the pieces that was broken,
Mend the heart that was wounded; solve the puzzle that I was escaping in a maze…
I unload myself with anxiety and burden,
Come what may this are all the realm of possibilities…
I know this too shall pass…yeah…this too shall pass…
For every grace is bestowed in perfect weakness...

Still

I can still see his face
His warm smile still melts me
His eyes still tantalize me
His voice still sounds in my ear
Still I am overwhelmed by the wave of his hands
I am still thrilled by the way he looks at me
I am still stuck in every minute of the night
I am still spellbound and I am so happy
But far across this space and time
If fate permits
I hope this will turn into reality
But it’s a dream, still.

i was not really a fan of angelina jolie but i really admire her…i couldnt think of someone a celebrity at that who could stand in the midst of blazing sun in Africa…who could stand at the people with dirty torn clothes…with cut fingers or with bruises…
ive read a blog about " angelina jolie note from my travel " i was so moved by what ive read…there are few lines that struck me in the course of my readings…and i wanted it to share to those people who want to make a difference…
"i honestly want to help.i dont believe i’m different from other people. i think we all want justice and equality.we all want a chance for a life with meaning.all od us would like to believe that if we were in a bad situation someone would help us. "
" i dont understand why some things are talked about and others are not. "
" i wasnt sure i should go..im still not sure-and i know this may sound false to some - i thought of the peoplw who havw no choicw."
" i told one of the workers how i admired him for being able to work there everyday, all day long.he said, yes its hard work and its for the children so it feels good. "
" when they say each person can make a difference, i believe that is true."
" could you imagine if that was our everyday life ? could you imagine acknowledging every individual you pass smiling at one or another? showing respect to everyone ? the imabalnce of funding in the world makes no sense to me. "
" and yet with all the complaints, i have never felt so good in my life . i am tremendously honored to be with these people. i realize more everyday how fortunate i have been in my life . i hope i never forget and never complain again about anything but damn-my feet are itchy. earlier this morning i was complaining about my feet being itchy. this afternnon i met a man who lost his leg. he greeted me with a smile and was joking with his doctor, he found the energy to be gracious host to us visitors."
" there are so many cambodians over a certain age who will remember everything. i dont know how they live on, but they do with so much strength of will and power and spirit."
" it is a shame how for a time, i can easily shut out the world’s problem when i am safe at home ."
" they understand something about life that many of us ( thank god ) and they focus on many things we have forgotten,they know hopw to be grateful for, they appreciate the importance of family and community.they understand the poer of faith and love ."
" this message is on the board: if we all do a little, we can do a lot."
" i think this is the hardest thing to see, listen to them with their bruises, dirty torn clothes, cut fingers, as they smile at you,they are children, they still dream, they seem so full of hope, it breaks your heart."
" the mind wants to forget because it hurts and weigh so much on the heart and soul. "
i was really moved…" at the world needs is a genuine people with a good soul and a good heart."

In my solitude,

I’ve wished our ways were never destined to cross,
Such a coward heart that dares no battle,
Perhaps this magic will be unfathomable,
It will be sealed in pandoras box for the rest of my life,
Until such daunting heart bares his soul,
Risks and takes courage to unlock it with a key,
That will lift my spirit to eternity….